I been thinking more about birthmother's day and well I haven't changed my mind. I just don't like it for myself. I could think of a number of reasons that maybe play a part in how I feel.

• I am not proud of being a birthmom.
  
• It's not like I was in an open adoption where I could have seen first hand how my child was doing well.
• It's not like my daughter's parents treated me like a friend and expressed how happy they were to be my daughter's Mom and Dad.
• I didn't choose adoption. It was chosen for me.
  
• Too much guilt in shame is wrapped in adoption for me to celebrate the day.
  
• I don't think most people would even know birthmother's day exists to even remember birthmoms if they could bring themselves to bring it up.
• I don't need a special day to think of my child lost for adoption because I think of her everyday.